Stay or go

I’m too scared to go and everyone around me is moving

I’ve watered my flowers but now they’re not blooming

Visions of myself staying and leaving

Living in the unknown or living here not breathing

I can’t do it alone

I’m so far from home

So removed from myself I can’t see clearly

Uncertainty is moving closer and it’s moving fiercely

I just want to laugh

I just want to love

I just want to live simply

I just want to hug

I want to breathe again and to feel that clarity

Inhale sunshine rainbows and all the things I want to see

These dark thoughts aren’t me

But they come so closely

They’re messing with my identity

I know I want to give love and feel it in return

That’s the clearest notion I ever did learn

My love for animals and my love for life

My urge to succeed and need to survive

The love for my boyfriend and my family so great

I need to get back to a place where it’s safe

Home

I told you I was going home

but I don’t know where that is

as when you left me on that day

home did no longer exist

life through fresh eyes

As the sky went pink he turned and said to me

You know that you’re better than anybody 

That was such a big statement so I turned back and said 

Better than anybody you’ve ever met? 

He said it was my mind, he could talk to me all day

My looks never once came into play

We sat on the sunflowers 

Whilst the sun went down slowly for hours 

He said the way I see things is magical and wonderful 

I am brave and strong, but also vulnerable 

As the sky turned orange he turned to me again 

Please can you tell me, what is your name? 

Amy I said, as the sky turned grey

He then turned around to me to say 

Amy, you know the sky has been grey all of this time

I said let’s enjoy the last bit of sunshine 

I picked him a flower but it stung his hand 

He said it was a nettle, which I didn’t understand

I said what I’ve been seeing isn’t lies 

You just need to look at life through fresh eyes

World hunger

Do we not feed the world enough 
For it to want to eat me whole 
I know it’s hungry 
I can feeling it rumbling
Thunder skies moving across
Land where we stand 
Waiting for confirmation of what we are 
I know it’s hungry 
It’s ready for me 
Mouth wide open 
Ready to swallow me whole 
Amongst the cracks I fall 
Into the abyss of within 
Where conformation of who we are lies
Dust amongst a cloud 
Of moving smoke 
Blinding us
Eyes closed, I can finally see
The world is ready for me

Bird song

She had the type of eyes which made the birds sing
Under the tree in the graveyard
Where a man told her that the world was cold but she felt warm
Next to where his wife sleep
He felt he could confide
Her eyes like balls of cotton
Which the birds used to make their nest
Soothing and comforting
Her eyes like a party
Inviting and enticing
Where all the guests felt welcome
The door left open
To a world where
The birds sang all day and night

Ode to Peggy

I would say you deserve the world,
but the world I cannot give,
As in this current state, the world is not a gift,
I would say you deserve everything,
But everything you will not accept,
as greed is far removed from you,
You would give me all you had left,
I would say you deserve the sun,
and I could take it out the sky,
For all the light we need in this world, you can just supply,
I would say you deserve happiness,
that is all I want for you,
For sadness has become your friend,
and that we must remove,
In fact the world deserves you,
for you make it a better place,
So effortlessly you reward the earth,
with your amazing grace.

A better world

A better world is possible I can see it in the horizon
A better world is possible, that I have now set my eyes on
I’ve got my foot in, and the door has been forced open
To a better world, one we can all find hope in
I wonder if I could take your hand and we could stand strong
I know the damage has already been done
I hope it’s not too late for me to stop this wave that’s splashing
I hope it’s not too late for me to stop this wave that’s crashing
Drowning a majority, with decades of oppression
Until they can’t breathe – a phrase said in succession

I wonder if I can help you breathe again
A privilege we are not all lucky enough to retain
Let me give your lungs a break
From the air we have clouded with our mistakes
A better world is possible when we choose to fight
For a life where we can share equal plight
For now, let me relieve some of your pain
If I tell you that things will never be the same
If I could just take your hand
I know I won’t ever fully understand
But I promise to pave a better world for you
By thinking about my actions, in everything that I do

animal kingdom

it’s time to take back our planet now we are all free
what a wonderful life this is going to be
humans now contained, to see no daylight for weeks
whilst we utilise our space, to make it less bleak
the future is looking clear, like the shallow waters I’m finally drifting in
let’s take back our kingdom, which we have for so long been prisoners in
let’s graze through the grass and never stop running
through empty fields, they will see us coming
every species you can imagine, back where we belong
they will watch from their windows as we stand strong
we will all meet in unison, never to be separated
a force to be reckoned with, a new life that we’ve created
food for us all, eachother we can not eat
the humans can’t eat us either, as we are out of reach
they will watch along as we reclaim our land
once out of hiding, they will no longer stand
their only choice is to step down, for us to show our refinement
in a land filled with colour, and no more confinement

N

the title of this poem is ‘N’

but does that make me entitled

to call this poem my own

or did i just write it

 

i feel deeply for this poem

but it isn’t my property

just because i love something

doesn’t mean it belongs to me

 

Because i love this poem

i am going to set it free

now this poem belongs to we

with this i hope we can all agree

 

that now I’ve set these words free

it’s clear for you all to see

this poem is deeply loved by me

but it is not my property

thank u, sun

i would like to say thank you to the sun
throughout this life you have been my only one
you’ve guided and adored me
you’ve cleansed my mind
throughout this darkness you’ve shown me a light
you shone on my tears whilst alleviating my fears
then without seed you grew a sunflower
which spread through my heart and helped devour
the thorns which punctured holes in my veins
you warmed my blood so that it would not stain
you shone through my holes and created a lantern
a beautiful silk design with a floral pattern
you guided me through the sky at night
i didn’t need fire to keep me alight
as you lit me up and lifted me away
so that i could shine for another day