Depth

When we lead with love

And heal with hope

We’ll find wisdom within

If we dive down deeply

We’ll realise the race

Is depth over distance

Male Gaze

We base our lives around the male gaze

Which look will get us the most praise

I wonder how beautiful our minds would shine

If their authentic selves were to align

Pretty is always our ticket to respect

The absence of beauty returns a lot less

If that is the case I don’t want the ticket

I will rip it up and then I will bin it

What power if we showed what’s deep inside

That side to ourselves that we try to hide

That side to ourselves that we try to suppress

In order to gain that bit more respect

If the only ticket to equality is to be pretty

The only ticket that will get us into the city

Where only the successful & beautiful seem to reside

I will happily walk for the rest of my life

Maybe…

I wonder what I could’ve been

A version of myself that remains to be seen

I really hope she will come out soon

I’m leaving her enough room

Maybe the world isn’t ready

It’s now forced me to take it steady

I can’t shine forever if I use all my light

I need to save some in order to stay bright

Maybe I’ll preserve it and carry it on with me

The brightest star you’ll ever see

Maybe in another lifetime I do exist

Fulfil all of the things my mind made me miss

Those nights that you wish would never end

Listening to music with your favourite friend

Maybe one day I’ll become one of those nights

A star in the sky that will always shine bright

Look down on myself laughing with friends

This time I’ll make sure the night never ends

homemade prisons

I don’t want to die because I feel like I haven’t lived yet 

But I’ve spent everyday living, afraid of dying 

How ironic that the prisons we find ourselves in 

Are the ones we build ourselves 

Stay or go

I’m too scared to go and everyone around me is moving

I’ve watered my flowers but now they’re not blooming

Visions of myself staying and leaving

Living in the unknown or living here not breathing

I can’t do it alone

I’m so far from home

So removed from myself I can’t see clearly

Uncertainty is moving closer and it’s moving fiercely

I just want to laugh

I just want to love

I just want to live simply

I just want to hug

I want to breathe again and to feel that clarity

Inhale sunshine rainbows and all the things I want to see

These dark thoughts aren’t me

But they come so closely

They’re messing with my identity

I know I want to give love and feel it in return

That’s the clearest notion I ever did learn

My love for animals and my love for life

My urge to succeed and need to survive

The love for my boyfriend and my family so great

I need to get back to a place where it’s safe

Home

I told you I was going home

but I don’t know where that is

as when you left me on that day

home did no longer exist

life through fresh eyes

As the sky went pink he turned and said to me

You know that you’re better than anybody 

That was such a big statement so I turned back and said 

Better than anybody you’ve ever met? 

He said it was my mind, he could talk to me all day

My looks never once came into play

We sat on the sunflowers 

Whilst the sun went down slowly for hours 

He said the way I see things is magical and wonderful 

I am brave and strong, but also vulnerable 

As the sky turned orange he turned to me again 

Please can you tell me, what is your name? 

Amy I said, as the sky turned grey

He then turned around to me to say 

Amy, you know the sky has been grey all of this time

I said let’s enjoy the last bit of sunshine 

I picked him a flower but it stung his hand 

He said it was a nettle, which I didn’t understand

I said what I’ve been seeing isn’t lies 

You just need to look at life through fresh eyes

World hunger

Do we not feed the world enough 
For it to want to eat me whole 
I know it’s hungry 
I can feeling it rumbling
Thunder skies moving across
Land where we stand 
Waiting for confirmation of what we are 
I know it’s hungry 
It’s ready for me 
Mouth wide open 
Ready to swallow me whole 
Amongst the cracks I fall 
Into the abyss of within 
Where conformation of who we are lies
Dust amongst a cloud 
Of moving smoke 
Blinding us
Eyes closed, I can finally see
The world is ready for me

Bird song

She had the type of eyes which made the birds sing
Under the tree in the graveyard
Where a man told her that the world was cold but she felt warm
Next to where his wife sleep
He felt he could confide
Her eyes like balls of cotton
Which the birds used to make their nest
Soothing and comforting
Her eyes like a party
Inviting and enticing
Where all the guests felt welcome
The door left open
To a world where
The birds sang all day and night

Ode to Peggy

I would say you deserve the world,
but the world I cannot give,
As in this current state, the world is not a gift,
I would say you deserve everything,
But everything you will not accept,
as greed is far removed from you,
You would give me all you had left,
I would say you deserve the sun,
and I could take it out the sky,
For all the light we need in this world, you can just supply,
I would say you deserve happiness,
that is all I want for you,
For sadness has become your friend,
and that we must remove,
In fact the world deserves you,
for you make it a better place,
So effortlessly you reward the earth,
with your amazing grace.