Stay or go

I’m too scared to go and everyone around me is moving

I’ve watered my flowers but now they’re not blooming

Visions of myself staying and leaving

Living in the unknown or living here not breathing

I can’t do it alone

I’m so far from home

So removed from myself I can’t see clearly

Uncertainty is moving closer and it’s moving fiercely

I just want to laugh

I just want to love

I just want to live simply

I just want to hug

I want to breathe again and to feel that clarity

Inhale sunshine rainbows and all the things I want to see

These dark thoughts aren’t me

But they come so closely

They’re messing with my identity

I know I want to give love and feel it in return

That’s the clearest notion I ever did learn

My love for animals and my love for life

My urge to succeed and need to survive

The love for my boyfriend and my family so great

I need to get back to a place where it’s safe

life through fresh eyes

As the sky went pink he turned and said to me

You know that you’re better than anybody 

That was such a big statement so I turned back and said 

Better than anybody you’ve ever met? 

He said it was my mind, he could talk to me all day

My looks never once came into play

We sat on the sunflowers 

Whilst the sun went down slowly for hours 

He said the way I see things is magical and wonderful 

I am brave and strong, but also vulnerable 

As the sky turned orange he turned to me again 

Please can you tell me, what is your name? 

Amy I said, as the sky turned grey

He then turned around to me to say 

Amy, you know the sky has been grey all of this time

I said let’s enjoy the last bit of sunshine 

I picked him a flower but it stung his hand 

He said it was a nettle, which I didn’t understand

I said what I’ve been seeing isn’t lies 

You just need to look at life through fresh eyes

World hunger

Do we not feed the world enough 
For it to want to eat me whole 
I know it’s hungry 
I can feeling it rumbling
Thunder skies moving across
Land where we stand 
Waiting for confirmation of what we are 
I know it’s hungry 
It’s ready for me 
Mouth wide open 
Ready to swallow me whole 
Amongst the cracks I fall 
Into the abyss of within 
Where conformation of who we are lies
Dust amongst a cloud 
Of moving smoke 
Blinding us
Eyes closed, I can finally see
The world is ready for me

Bird song

She had the type of eyes which made the birds sing
Under the tree in the graveyard
Where a man told her that the world was cold but she felt warm
Next to where his wife sleep
He felt he could confide
Her eyes like balls of cotton
Which the birds used to make their nest
Soothing and comforting
Her eyes like a party
Inviting and enticing
Where all the guests felt welcome
The door left open
To a world where
The birds sang all day and night

N

the title of this poem is ‘N’

but does that make me entitled

to call this poem my own

or did i just write it

 

i feel deeply for this poem

but it isn’t my property

just because i love something

doesn’t mean it belongs to me

 

Because i love this poem

i am going to set it free

now this poem belongs to we

with this i hope we can all agree

 

that now I’ve set these words free

it’s clear for you all to see

this poem is deeply loved by me

but it is not my property

thank u, sun

i would like to say thank you to the sun
throughout this life you have been my only one
you’ve guided and adored me
you’ve cleansed my mind
throughout this darkness you’ve shown me a light
you shone on my tears whilst alleviating my fears
then without seed you grew a sunflower
which spread through my heart and helped devour
the thorns which punctured holes in my veins
you warmed my blood so that it would not stain
you shone through my holes and created a lantern
a beautiful silk design with a floral pattern
you guided me through the sky at night
i didn’t need fire to keep me alight
as you lit me up and lifted me away
so that i could shine for another day

happy in my skin

your best life is preferential
in order to reach my full potential
i need to look within

it isn’t about my exterior
desperate to match the criteria
i feel i need to fit in

we are all beautiful
its time to be truthful
learn to love my skin

sand in my toes
a vacation picture for my next post
where I can make myself look thin

pull in my waist
contour my face
paint on a grin

a beautiful getaway
where I didn’t manage to getaway
from the loneliness within

my friends and family will see a smile
a cocktail on the beach, all the while
under the stars, to the sadness I give in

not to be captured on a photo
as it’s too dark to show
the emotional whirlwind

so for the while
you’ll see my smile
until I am able to admit

in order to really live my best life
i need to be happy in my own skin

A life of freedom

I’ve found that this life isn’t for me
I have always envisioned myself to be free
Where love knows no boundaries
Hate was a myth
A work of fiction you’d read about – but never did exist
Your imagination could run a marathon
But never get tired
Modesty was an attribute to be admired
A mind and body in complete serenity
Working hand in hand to utilise every memory
We worshipped one another religiously
A new story book of imagery
A homemade remedy
Where religion wasn’t an entity
Animals had a safe haven
Humans were not so brazen
They roamed free amongst our bodies
We feed each other all the nutrition we need
Kindness and trust – ingested as a whole
Love throughout the mind, body and soul
Eyes overloaded with green
Nature was all that was seen
Flowers growing from every corner of the planet
Wildlife thriving as no one would damage it
A life left untouched
But never lonely – not once in our clutch
Where we lived as one
Our creator was the sun
We were never to be divided
Forever in the light we resided

Til’ we meet again

One leaves this world without the other 

Oh how cruel life can be

Because by my side I wanted you

For the rest of eternity

Life went so fast

The pace of a racing car

That flew down the highway

Taking you so far

The love radiating around me

No longer I can feel

The presence of you beside me

That is now not so real

I will love you forever

But now no way to show

The need to feel your touch once more

Will only make my love grow

One day we will meet

With the clouds under our feet

I’ll touch your outstretched hand

And strong again our love will stand

Those nights I spent alone all now worth while

For so long I have yearned to see that smile