The bees healed me

The bees healed me

Each flower they pollinated woven into my skin

A seamstress by day, my own body for design

He sewed ivy into my tongue so that I could not speak

But silenced again I will not be

I took out the stitches and a sunflower replaced it

After you left me bare

The bees made me a new dress

With honey they caressed me

I rolled in grass and the daisies joined me

Together we are strong and bright

I embraced my old cast iron Singer

Cobwebs danced around it

An old story told whilst a new story unfolds

The bees chose daffodils this time

With each stitch my old skin faded

Now it’s like he never touched me

I can lay back under the sun

Whilst the bees feed me, once more

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Home comfort

I told you I was going home

But I don’t know where that is

As when you left me on that day

Home did no longer exist

You left me cold, in rain soaked slippers

I walked past all those family homes

Fires lit where children whispered

Of life where love was all that’s known

The street lamp flickered as I wondered on

Past a bungalow in the shadow of the moon

He wondered what I was running from

But not what I was running too

As he watched in the window, I put up my hood

I kept my dressing gown on for comfort

To keep hold of my home before I leave it for good

To start my journey in the thunder

Eating alone

I fear that you’ll never let go

I’ve tried ushering you away

Like an ant in a built-up town

I’m trying to find you a new home

I am a tired bee and I’ve pollenated you

But you’ve run out of sugar water

You used it all in the cups of tea I made us

They’ve gone cold and the kettle has run out of water

Like a pigeon eating out the palm of a child

You peck until my hands are sore

These hands need to be preserved

So I can build you a new home

You drain me like pasta water

I can add it to my cooking but I want to eat alone

I only lit a candle for one

I know you hold enough fire for us both

But I don’t want to feel that heat anymore

I must let go of the old me

Dancing in the dark

I’ve found it too much fun dancing in the dark

For my footwork is impeccable and timing to the nearest mark

It’s a beautiful thing to dance to your own music

Keeping hold of beat so that you don’t lose it

A loud silence echoing off of old stone walls

Whilst my feet move in perfect time to the calls

Even sometimes I dance to the sweet bird song

Under the moonlight, as it casts a shadow so strong

At the first quarter is when i feel I dance my best

As that’s when darkness tends to my every request

I can finally let go and my feet feel alive

Til’ the next full moon, I hope I will survive

If I live til’ autumn

If I live til’ autumn, I think I’ll finally be free

As for so long, the darkness has coddled me

My colours now dampened by the cold winter dew

Whilst I beckon to you summer, in order to feel brand new

Here I fall gracefully, from the oak trees clutch

Reaching back to you, but still just out of touch

Waiting for autumn wind, to take me over the greenery

Where with each wave, I’ll soak up the scenery

Once the trees let me go, I can finally be free

As for so long, they have been keeping hold of me

I know it’s time to go, I can feel it deep inside

The wind blows ferociously

Vulnerable – and nowhere to hide

Shedding the burnt orange, to embrace an emerald green

If I live til’ autumn, the greatest journey ever seen

I won’t be here for long, and I can’t live forever

Autumn winds felt heavy, but lifted me like a feather

I’m not sure now, that I will live to see the day

The day where, the autumn winds lifted me away

To love someone

loving someone so much can be so bitter sweet

as you feel so empty when it’s time for them to leave

a piece of your soul will always be gone

but your heart will beat again, now more strong

loving someone so much feels so sweet

growth of new flowers after wilted orange leaves

a feeling of new life always round the corner

from winter to spring as the nights get warmer

to love someone so much is to also let them go

when the time comes closer, it will be hard not to show

to feel new life being created after one is ready to go

to return to the roots and now be ready to grow

a red rose blooming under the January sun

to be picked and given to your dearest loved one

a cycle of love that continues for always

but only started once I let you go on your way

Peggy & John

i can’t thank you enough for all that you’ve done

i cant win a prize that’s already been won

to be your granddaughter and all these wonderful years

lyme regis beaches or wiping my tears

if I could have one more walk on that beach

i would tell you my love for you is out of reach

it spreads so far and wide around all of the earth

it’s enough love to live another life’s worth

i knew this when I was young but thought we had so much time

the time has slipped away, a bigger mountain now to climb

if I could have one more ride home from school in that volvo

i wouldn’t hide in the back seat and take up the whole row

i would look to you and grandad sitting in the front

reach over and beep the horn, to show my classmates i had won

a prize more valuable than anything ever

Peggy and John – my greatest treasures

Mountain

Stuck between its too late and it’s only just started

In the middle I will sit until

I am rescued

Eyes closed dipping my feet in both ponds

The best years are to come but all the best years have gone

Summer sunshine met with holy matrimony

Vows to myself to remain youthful

Whilst my skin glows but my bones ache

Wondering if wisdom has made me feel older

I’ve felt so much in so little time

So I will sit with my toes in freezing water until

I can’t feel

To climb the mountain barefoot and

Take me back to where it all began

Waves

The waves washed me away

Fickle and fragile I fled with hope

Of not drowning with these thoughts of

What I must do and should have said

The apprehension of time passing

How the waves carry it away so fleetingly

Before you know it you are 30

Innocence now swallowed by the animals

The same animals who set me free

In dreams of becoming Cesar Milan

Where my whispers reached a thousand ears

I spoke softly but never enough

Words clouded, forcing rain down fast

Making tides stronger

Taking me away

Maybe…

I wonder what I could’ve been

A version of myself that remains to be seen

I really hope she will come out soon

I’m leaving her enough room

Maybe the world isn’t ready

It’s now forced me to take it steady

I can’t shine forever if I use all my light

I need to save some in order to stay bright

Maybe I’ll preserve it and carry it on with me

The brightest star you’ll ever see

Maybe in another lifetime I do exist

Fulfil all of the things my mind made me miss

Those nights that you wish would never end

Listening to music with your favourite friend

Maybe one day I’ll become one of those nights

A star in the sky that will always shine bright

Look down on myself laughing with friends

This time I’ll make sure the night never ends